So, tomorrow is the 25th. For so many years October 25th was the worst day. The day I dreaded. In 1990 we lost Renee and in 1994 we lost my Grandfather...yeah October 25th is a crappy day. Now of course another day has taken over as the "worst" but we won't talk about that.
This post is filled with old pictures....just a warning....... :)

On October 25th, and everyday, Peg, Daryl and family my heart is with you.

My beautiful Bad Ass Friend.....and my dorky little brother....


Back in the Day.......

I almost didn't post this, but with a little creative editing it is ok to use.. Granddad AND Renee are in it so I had too. oh and yes my hair is red

I miss you ...I know you and Jed are together being smart mouth, bad asses while you keep an eye on all of us. I know Granddad is there too....doing his "laugh without sound" and funny little smile.... The child that is named after you is amazing....the 2 of you would have been quite the pair.

Mom, Granddad and Grandma "A"

The suave FBI agent with his women, cigarette and bourbon...Life is Good

Most of my pictures of Granddad are him on the bay fishing...


That's me with him. He is explaining something important that I am supposed to learn....little does he know that in less than a half an hour I will be throwing up none stop for hours.....then my brother will start too and Granddad will run 3 deep sea lines with 4 hooks on each for most of the day while we puke. aaahhh my one and only deep sea fishing trip. While he loved to be on the sea....I just love to be next to it.


My brother and Granddad in the little bay boat....my dad is standing there too....


A and TO...as Savannah named him..


The bay...and A & TO I have so so many memories from this place....


Oh this is a classic, must have been A's birthday. Aunt Paula and Suzy were there too..

I know he is the one that came to meet Jed, along with my other Grandfather. I know they are hanging out and Renee comes by to make sure they are behaving themselves :) We miss them so so much but I am selfishly happy that they are there to take care of my Jeddie.

This not very flattering picture is to tell you that the smallest one in the group got married yesterday! Congrats to Felicia and Anai...

She is the youngest of Granddad's 6 Grand kids.

I came home from class tonight with the intention of scanning in some pictures of Renee and Granddad. So now it is 2 1/2 hours and 125 scanned pictures later.....very few of which are of Renee and Granddad. I get so caught up in them. I have this nifty little scanner that Danny got me and it makes it so quick to scan. I thought I was doing great, then I realized, when I am ready to scan more I will never be able to remember what was scanned and what was not....I needed a system but that's not really my style.

Jeddie and Freddie, I think that is Raven with them, we didn't have him very long :(


Savannah and Sarah having a discussion...


Oh Fred, such an original...


Yes there is a picture of Jeddie....of course! Here he is...the beach baby..


Jeddie Spaghetti the days continue to get harder and the faster they go the happier I am. "Happy" is relative though....I miss you with every breath. THON 5K was this Sunday. It was nice to see everyone but I always feel pointless without you there. I feel untethered, I don't know what I am supposed to be doing. I don't like it. I just miss you. I hope every night that when I wake up in the morning this would all have been a nightmare, that I dreamed all this hell and you really are in your room getting ready to knock on the wall. I hope, but of course it doesn't happen. but I will keep hoping.
Your sister is doing amazing things...keep watching over her.
Mommy loves you........always
Love J & K

oh this child.....