The blog entry I never wanted to make. Yesterday Jed had a bone marrow aspiration. We got the results last evening. The cancer is back in his marrow. We are devastated. Because of the infection in his lungs receiving more chemo would just be torture. I have decided to stop all cancer treatment and make him comfortable for however long we are lucky enough to have him. He has fought a long brave fight and deserves to finish this battle with no pain or fear. He is awake and alert a very little bit. He did talk to Danny and I over night, just answering yes or no or asking for a drink. I am not telling Jed that we stopped treatment. If he asks me I will tell him that we are trying to fix the infection and make him feel as good as we can....end of story. I see no reason to scare him. He is starting on a fentanyl drip sometime today. I know he will wonder what's up with all the visitors he will be getting. I have told him everyone wants to see him for New Years. He is very aware of how bad the infection is. If at some point he starts to really ask me questions I will answer them as honestly as I can. I know so many love Jed and we are grateful for that. You may visit but I am asking everyone to please control their emotions while in his room. I do not want him scared or worried about others. I am sorry many of you are finding out this way.
He is such a good boy, so sweet and loving and so very tough. I cannot yet even think about how I will live without him. I can't imagine a world without him in it.
Thank you all for the many years of love and support. It has meant more than you could know.
Love J & K