Angel Jed



Savannah getting a lift from "big brother" Brent..aka crooked.

Ok, here are some random pieces of info. I will tell them to you and then tell you how they all relate.
So in our house over the past 10 yrs Danny has randomly sang "Old Man River". I didn't know for some time that is was actually a song...I thought he made it up. Anyway over the summer Jed started to randomly sing it....he would just do it out of the blue...we all would crack up and Jed would giggle.
Ever since I have returned to work, every afternoon as the end of the day gets closer I get upset. I used to be so happy to go home. Even when Jed was not feeling well he was happy to see me, he would be waiting for me. Now I know when I go home.....he is not here. I cannot describe how heartbreaking it is. I miss that feeling of being happy to get home and see Jed. It also makes me angry that the place I love the most is so painful to return to. Anyway, so yesterday I was finishing up at work and a guy I work with came over to see if I was ok. He knew I was upset and he sat and talked to me a bit. Everyone has been very nice, a few have been extra nice.
Last night I decided that I was going to stop and get donuts to take to everyone at work..because they have been so nice. This morning I thought for a second that I would wait until next week but I thought, no I want to take them today....so I did.
Ok here is where all this comes together.
When I got to work I put the donuts out. Phil, the guy that talked to me yesterday came over and handed me a CD. He said that his father had given him an album recorded in the 50's and whenever he was sad or upset he listened to it and it made him feel better. He had recorded it onto a CD for me. He said maybe it would help me as it has helped him. He also said that he knew it was a bit before my time and I had probably never heard of it but I should just give it a listen. I looked down and the title of the album and the 1st track was "Old Man River"... I was stunned. I explained the significance of this song in my house. He just laughed. I then told him to make sure he ate some donuts. He came back a few minutes later and said, "by the way today is my birthday, thanks for the donuts"!!!!!
As I write this I realize that many will not see how weird this is but it is ....weird, awesome and just so cool! I think that Phil helped me and Jed made sure I got those donuts TODAY to do good for Phil.
I wish you could hear Jed as I still hear him in my head,,,singing Old Man River... it really was a chuckle. I felt SO good after all that this morning. I don't care what anyone says.... I know that was Jed's doing. I KNOW IT. I just had to laugh. I had told him that subtle does not work with me and I needed him to make sure his signs to me were very obvious! He came through on this one! Don't think for one second that it made it easier to come home..the pain was still the same....but he gave me a good smile today.
Such a funny little man.
Love J & K
oh baby Jed....you are amazing.