Well yesterday two supervisors said our sick days were good until the end of the week. So you all know my plan to use them Thursday and Friday. Today I get to work...almost happy...as happy as I could be since as of today I have lived 1 month without my son...and I hate my job. Anyway I was almost happy because I knew I only had to get through today and I could be at home until Monday. HAHAHA I should know better. This morning there is a new memo saying that our sick days are no good as of yesterday!!!!!! YAY Harley Davidson way to value your employees. Now I will be getting up at 5am again tomorrow and Friday. Oh well. I guess that's just how it is.
Missing Jed is beyond words. Everything is a reminder of his sweetness, his sarcasm, his love of facts and statistics (especially ones he made up), his care of others, his wonderful humor and his extraordinary bravery. Everything is a reminder that he is not here anymore. He is in my heart and I know he is watching but he is NOT HERE. I go down at night to get all his meds ready. I wait for him to call me into his room when he is ready to go to sleep. I walk by his room and stick my head in to ask if he is ok or what he is doing. I listen, waiting to hear him sing or make a joke or laugh at Family Guy. I wait, I listen, I look and I hope. I miss him and I hurt and I am sad and for some reason life just keeps moving forward. We are supposed to learn to live without him....how? Life is much dimmer. I have never wanted to grow old so quickly in my life.
Love J & K